It's Friday night and I am home alone. About a year ago I'd be on the streets earning money to support a $200-$300 a day drug habit. I don't know if it's because I'm 50 years old or because I was homeless for so long, but I do not go outside the house now unless it's something important. I've become a hermit!
I think it's because I feel safe at home. I feel in control at all times and I don't have to worry about someone else. The best part is I can work on improving my writing skills, my knowledge of search engine optimization and content creation and marketing.
I actually enjoy being alone at this point in my life so it doesn't bother me as much as it should. Besides, I'm alone by design because it'll allow me to change my life completely. I'll be going into rehab in the near future so change is coming and I can't run from it any longer.
Why Do I Need to Go to Rehab to Change My Life?
For the past 28 years my life has been a constant mix of drugs, sex and rock-n-roll. I dated models, porn stars and prostitutes. I've always had a woman in my life even if she was just a friend and I almost always found a way to secure money for drugs because that was my number one priority. Everything else came in second place if it came at all.
I hope the time I spend in rehab will really help me change my life so I can achieve some goals and live a comfortable life.
The text below was written by Lauren Mackler. It's a good motivational article so you'll get good ideas on how to improve your life.
Living Fearlessly by Lauren Mackler
Imagine what your life would be like if you could move beyond limiting beliefs and behaviors, and fully become the person you were born to be. What if you could “live boldly”—reclaim your magnificence, liberate your authentic self, and activate your potential to create the personal and professional life you desire?
When we’re born, each of us is a whole human being with unique potential. We have innate personality traits, certain strengths and abilities, and a healthy and intact self-esteem.
We have no inhibitions, so we have the ability to feel, and to express our feelings in a spontaneous and natural way. Then our life conditioning begins.
The family, environment, circumstances, and experiences we grow up with play an enormous role in determining whether our innate wholeness remains intact, or whether our authentic self becomes buried beneath patterns of insecurity, unworthiness, anger, avoidance, people-pleasing, fear, or other self-defeating patterns.
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